How Will I Know?

How do I know that I’m doing the right thing? How do I know that living in this house, with these girls, was the right thing to do? How do I know I’m doing the right university course? How do I know the right thing to do is not to pursue anything more with a certain guy? How do I know letting my writing slide over the summer was for the best? How do I know I’m not going to regret everything I do right now in five, ten, twenty years?

The thing is, I don’t. I don’t know that what I’m doing is the right thing to do. I know that right now it feels like it is and that’s all I can go with. And I just have to try and live a life that doesn’t bank on regrets. I don’t want to regret things; I want to look back and think that even if something maybe wasn’t the right thing that it shaped me in some way. Of course, ideally I would look back and think “thank God I made that choice, it was so right” but we cannot have everything in life.

So for now I’ll just have to live with my decisions and try to stop questioning every little thing! Because as they say: if it feels right, do it. Or something along those lines…?

5 Things That Make No Sense To Me

I love a list. I have notebooks all over the place filled with lists of what I need to do, what I want to do, what I need to see. I have lists in progress and completed lists. I’m currently making a list of everything I need to do before leaving my student halls. Right now though, I want to list things that don’t make any sense (to me, anyway).

Excessive hashtagging. I use hashtags, on instagram and from time to time on twitter. I get what they’re for and blah blah blah; I don’t have a problem with hashtags as a whole. I just don’t understand people who post a picture of themselves and hashtag it as so: #me #myself #i #girl #selfie #person #woman #[insert own name here]  #picture #photo #hat #dress #shoe #sock #bra #knickers. You get the idea. Another thing that makes no sense where hashtags are concerned is this: you post a picture of you and your best friend, it’s very nice. You add hashtags, because why wouldn’t you? But they go something like this: #best #friend #love #you #friends #forever. Now to me, that misses the point of hashtagging. Surely it should be #bestfriend #loveyou #friendsforever? Am I missing something here?  Where will the madness end?

Being mean to people who are only trying to help you. Possibly my biggest pet peeve, because it makes absolutely no sense to me, I can barely understand the mentality of it. Oh, you don’t like your food? Well yeah, attack the waiter because they were the ones who cooked it, not the ones who simply brought it to you. Oh, you’re having a bad day? Obviously it’s the nice sales assistant’s fault who’s only trying to help you, please continue to shout at them.

Spencer MatthewsFrom Made in Chelsea. If you don’t know what it is, it’s a TV show that follows the lives of some rich people and it’s the most awkward show I’ve ever watched, and I only watch it from time to time. Anyway, my brother loves Spencer and I’m sure there are other people out there who do too but I do not get it at all. He went on holiday with I think 3 of his exes and the girl he was currently seeing (which is insane in the first place) and he ended up sleeping with one of his exes. Not the girl he’d brought with him, a girl who he’d previously treated like shit and who apparently “hated him”. Right there on the holiday! This is one of many reasons he makes no sense to me and I will continue to be baffled by him probably forever.

Why people say they wish they had hair like mine. Trust me, you don’t. Yeah it’s occasionally fabulously wavy. But mainly it’s thick and it’s frizzy and I only brush it before and after it’s washed (to keep the occasional waves the rest of the time) so it’s usually knotty.  And sure, maybe if you had my hair you wouldn’t be as lazy as I am and would do something like straighten it every day so it looked good always. But guess what? Doing that every day would mean you don’t actually want this hair, you want luscious straight locks that don’t look so thick.

People who ditch their friends as soon as they get a boyfriend/girlfriend. This literally makes zero sense to me, I can’t get my head around what must go through their minds? I lost my very best friend because of this. I mean, it can’t be blamed solely on this but it was a very big contributor. She never had much time for me when she had a boyfriend but she got together with this one in particular at a time where our lives were going in different directions and it was worse than before. Even almost 3 years later it breaks my heart thinking about it because I genuinely thought we would be friends, if not forever then certainly for a long, long time. This girl was my soulmate and now the only interactions we have are generic texted happy birthdays, merry christmases and happy new years. We had other problems in our friendship yeah, but I genuinely believe we could’ve at least tried to sort them out. But it just got too hard for me to keep trying to make the effort to see her, so I had to let it go.

There are many, many (many) other things that don’t make any sense but it could just turn into a rant and I need to finish packing up my room so I’ll leave it at these!

 

Who am I?

Who am I? I’m a girl from England who’s wanted to start writing a blog for as long as I can remember now, and who has always enjoyed writing. Signing up to WordPress months ago I was yet to write my first post when I happened to come across a post titled Zero to Hero, about getting started on your blog. So obviously it was fate and I had to bite the bullet and write my first post straight away.

I don’t really know where to start so I’ll just answer the questions suggested by The Daily Post

  • I’m choosing to blog publicly rather than keep a private journal because I’m interested in whether anyone would want to read what I have to say
  • I don’t know yet what topics I’ll write about, anything and everything; whatever I feel I have something to say about
  • I’d love to connect with other people writing blogs (is bloggers the right term?), there’s no one specific in my mind
  • If I’m still blogging in a year I’d love to have at least one or two followers who care what I’m writing about!

I don’t necessarily have a vision I just want to share my writing with others

So I’ll check back with The Daily Post tomorrow and see if it inspires me to write post number two!

Here goes nothing