Sick, sick, sick

I’ve been dipping in and out of the The Daily Post’s blogging challenge, and today’s led me to their 365 Writing Prompts ebook. It’s full of great prompts and has inspired me to write today’s post. I have no doubt I’ll be using it again in the future!

The prompt goes: When you’re unwell, do you allow others to take care of you, or do you prefer to soldier on alone? What does it take for you to ask for help?

This one seemed pretty appropriate for me today as I’m just recovering from what feels like the longest cold I have ever had in my life. I’ve been pretty ill with it; headaches, lethargy, uncontrollable runny nose, the usual symptoms of a cold but it’s all felt a lot worse than usual. That being said, I don’t think many people around me know I’ve been ill. Growing up, if we were sick we were expected to carry on with school and such unless we were constantly throwing up or something similar. As a result, I tend to not make a big deal when I’m ill now, which isn’t that often anyway.

I don’t do it in a “I’m such a martyr soldiering on while I’m dying of such-and-such an illness”, I have a more “I refuse to be ill, I refuse to let this illness control my life” type attitude. I think it’s better to ignore it and get on with things. That being said! If I’m at home and I’m sick and I’m feeling particularly sorry for myself, I wouldn’t say no to my mum if she offered to look after me. There’s nothing better than your mum taking care of you.

One of my favourite shows ever, Grey’s Anatomy, recently had an episode where there was an sickness bug going around and the doctors were getting sick. I loved this episode, I thought it was very funny, especially the scenes with Derek and Meredith.  Before they fell victim to the illness most of the doctors were refusing to acknowledge that it was happening to them even if it was plainly obvious; a “I’m a doctor, we don’t get sick” attitude. I’m definitely no doctor but I love this attitude towards illness and it did remind me of myself!

Although I like the attitude I have towards this, I reckon I can take it a little too far. A few months ago I hurt my knee pretty badly. Like limping around on it for weeks, constant pain, badly. But as I didn’t really mention it much to my friends I think they thought it was fine after a week or so which resulted in me hurrying to keep up a lot of the time, pain, and I’m sure it took a lot longer to heal than it should’ve. I would not recommend this to anyone; it’s alright to let people know you’re not okay sometimes!

It can also be taken too far in the other direction, which I wouldn’t recommend either!

 

I Can’t Stay Mad at You. You, Though…

Do you hold grudges or do you believe in forgive and forget? For me, it’s a combination of the two. If anyone hurts someone in my family or my friends then you can bet five years down the line, I’ll still be holding a grudge against them. There really isn’t much I hate more than seeing the people I love in pain (physical or emotional).

When it comes to my own experiences though, it’s slightly different. Especially if it’s someone I care about that has upset me, I can never stay mad. I can rarely even let them know how I feel. Too afraid to upset the apple cart. So my friend lets me down, hurts my feelings, you’ll see me smiling away with them the next day as if nothing has happened.

I don’t forget though, I can’t. Which isn’t particularly helpful, except when it happens again I can say “Well first they did this, remember, then they did this and this and now THIS?! Really!?” And so my anger and hurt is fuelled. Fantastic.

I wouldn’t say I necessarily believe in forgive and forget because there have been several times when I wish I’d been able to call someone out on what they’ve done. Forgiveness is a funny thing though, I’m so willing to forgive someone I love even if they’ve hurt my feelings multiple times; sometimes people who I’m not sure deserve forgiveness. But some people who do deserve forgiveness may not get it. It can be difficult to put things into perspective when it’s close to home.

Forgiveness can be refreshing though; holding onto anger can eat you up inside as I’m sure we’ve all heard before! What I do believe is that sometimes forgiving and forgetting is great and definitely the right thing to do. Sometimes though, it’s not so great and holding that grudge can make you feel so much better, even if it’s not the “right” thing to do – it’s not forever, is it!

Shout It Out

I’m a pretty quiet person, definitely more introverted than extroverted although I do have my moments. Lately I’ve been discovering more and more how my chronic quietness, sometimes shyness, can be both a blessing and a curse.

The Pros

  • People think I’m a good listener (I am).
  • I actually do enjoy listening. Listen Lady, anyone?
  • I pick up a lot of information listening to everyone around me while others are “chat chat chat”. Seriously, I could be your friend I know that much about you (be my friend please)

The cons

  • I’m fairly certain I come across as a super bitch sometimes because I’m not “getting involved”. Hey, it’s harder than it looks! And I’m not a super bitch, all the time.
  • I come across as awkward (I am awkward) when I’d love to come across as cool/chill/awesome/neat
  • I usually have something I’d love to say about what we’re talking about but I have a fear of people thinking what I have to say is silly/I don’t have the balls to get involved if I don’t know you that well.
  • People might think I don’t like them when in reality I really do like them.

So there we go. Conclusions? Speak up a bit more – but tell me something I don’t know. Meanwhile just remember, I’m always listening…

 

If I Had A…Wrench?

I wasn’t going to do the Daily Prompt today because I didn’t think I had a certain trade I’d like to learn. But I’m trying to write every day (read as: most days) and I suddenly realised what skill I’d like to have.

I’d love to be able to fix cars, mechanic type stuff. That way, if/when something goes wrong with my car, I’d be able to sort it out myself no bother. I’m really not very good at asking for help; I feel like it’s a sign of me being weak when I have to do it. Which is crazy because I don’t judge anyone if they ask people for help, I think it’s great. But I can’t seem to apply that to myself.

Anyway, I don’t have a car when I’m away at uni and at home we share two cars between the three of us so I don’t technically have full responsibility for a car and my dad, love him, is in charge of all problems car-related. But one day I’m going to move out of my parents’ house and hopefully(!) have my own car and it’s almost guaranteed to have something wrong with it at some point. How amazing would it be if I could fix it myself, no parents, no mechanics!?

Of course, I don’t know the first thing about car mechanics so it’s more of a pipe dream for the time being.

Working It Out

I had a moment today, at the gym, where I was on the verge of tears and I thought to myself “hey, you’ve been on the verge of tears at the gym a few too many times. Maybe you ought to get your shit together”. But an hour later, when I left to go home, I felt so much better. I felt lighter and happier, albeit sweatier and hungrier. And I thought back to the other times (embarrassing that this has happened to me more than once, I know) and I think the same was true then. So it occurs to me; is it in fact true that exercise is better at cheering you up than chocolate?

And you know, I think it is. I love chocolate as much as the next person but the way my mood turned around in such a short amount of time really surprised me. The things that had upset me are still there, but that hour of exercise has given me a better perspective, made me feel like I can deal with them. It reminded me of scene from a film that I adore: “Exercise gives you endorphins. Endorphins make you happy. Happy people just don’t shoot their husbands, they just don’t.” I have to say, I now 100% agree with Elle Woods and am going to try and hit the gym for a shot of those wonderful endorphins whenever I’m feeling down from now on!

It’s A Great Big World

Travelling is something I have always wanted to do, it’s on my bucket list, and I have a long list of places I want to visit. I’m also a massive fan of Pinterest and could spend hours looking through all the travel pins. Here are the top five places I’d love to wander before I die:

 

1. Jamaica. I think Jamaica looks absolutely beautiful and ever since I was around 10 years old I’ve dreamed of getting to sit on one of those gorgeous beaches. Jamaica is definitely number one on any list of places I want to go; it’s the fantasy.

2. New York City. So many places I want to see in America, but New York is pretty high up on the list. I need to know if it lives up to the hype, if it’s everything I’ve heard it is. Is it really the city that never sleeps?

3. Mainland Spain. I love the language and I’ve been to several of the Spanish islands (Lanzarote, Menorca etc) but I’ve yet to actually set foot on the mainland.

4. Ireland. Of course for me, Ireland is just across the water so not particularly far away or difficult to visit. So perhaps it’ll be one of the first places on my list I get to cross off!

5. The world’s largest pool, in Chile.  I came across this article a few years ago and have had it bookmarked ever since. I can’t even begin to imagine swimming in a pool that large. I know the ocean is endless but this is a swimming pool! I would just love to be able to go one day “oh, the world’s largest pool? Yeah, I’ve swam in it”.

Bucket List

I love the idea of having a list of things you want to do before you kick the proverbial bucket so today’s Daily Prompt was perfect for me. I also love the film The Bucket List, it was what inspired me to first start mine several years ago. Not an exhaustive list, but here’s some things I’d love to do in my life.

  • Get a degree – currently in progress!
  • Give blood
  • Learn to drive – I passed my test in August 2012 and it was one of the proudest moments of my life to date
  • Fall in love
  • Get married
  • Have a child
  • Get my first job – another highlight from 2012, having a job has given me more confidence
  • Go on a safari
  • Develop greater self confidence – a slightly cheesy one, but anyway this is a work in progress!
  • Use Spanish in a proper conversation – I used to be fairly decent at Spanish but it’s fallen by the wayside
  • Take a road trip
  • See the world – specifically, I have a list of places I want to visit
  • Spend a whole day people-watching with my best friend

Not a very interesting bucket list but I know ticking these things off would make me happy. I’ll have plenty of opportunities to add more “exciting” things to it in the future, I’m sure.

I can also live in hope that my “dream reader” sees this and enjoys the image that I added!